Somebody's Prayin' For Me

I look back over the past 5 1/2 months and think, how have I made it?  How do I feel the peace that surpasses all understanding?  How do I not bury my head in my pillow and never get up?  How do I not give up on this life and any hope for a happy future?  How do I reassure Brenna that everything is going to be ok?

Do you know how I do it?

Somebody is praying for me.

A sweet friend sent me this song a few weeks ago.  I have never heard it before but when I listened to it online, I cried.  This is exactly how I do what I do every day.  I get comments and emails daily about how strong I am.  It is not my strength.  It is the strength my Jesus gives me.  He carries me when I cannot carry myself.

My Jesus.  The only way.

Oh how I have been covered in prayer for these many months.  There is nothing else that can explain the comfort, peace, and hope for the future than my Jesus' provides.  I am so so grateful for the many prayer warriors out there that lift us up daily.  I am humbled by the emails, comments, texts, and calls from friends saying they are praying for us.  Oh how thankful I am.

I feel the prayers!  I continue to need them.

Read these lyrics.

Who are you praying for?

Somebody's Praying for Me

I was lost in a desert land
So dry and thirsty
But God was there where He’d always been
Giving grace and mercy

So hard to sing and hard to pray
Yet I knew His Word was true
And then one day my faith returned
And suddenly I knew

Somebody’s praying for me
Somebody’s knocking on Heaven’s door
Somebody’s praying for me
Somebody’s lifting me up to the Lord
I knew it had to be
Somebody down on their knees
Somebody praying for me

I’ve been spared by so many prayers
How many times I could not say
What a difference a prayer can make
When it’s offered up in faith

God has always made a way
When I didn’t know what to do
Just when I needed a miracle
That’s when your prayers broke through

Somebody’s praying for me
Somebody’s knocking on Heaven’s door
Somebody’s praying for me
Somebody’s lifting me up to the Lord
Well I knew it had to be
Somebody down on their knees
Somebody praying for me

Now I know that friend was you
You were the gift God gave me
’Cuz when you prayed His love broke through
It was your prayer that saved me

Thank you for praying for me
Thank you for knocking on Heaven’s door
Thank you for praying for me
Thank you for lifting me up to the Lord
Now I can clearly see
That you were the one on your knees
So thank you for praying for me

Somebody’s praying for me
Somebody’s knocking on Heaven’s door
Somebody’s praying for me
Somebody’s lifting me up to the Lord
Well I knew it had to be
Somebody down on their knees
Somebody praying for me

Camp Good Grief 5K

This past Sunday, the Center for Good Grief held their annual Camp Good Grief 5K to raise funds for the amazing camp they host in the summer.  This is the camp Brenna was blessed to attend.  When we originally found out about the 5K, I did think we could make it.  But, as luck would have it, we were able to participate.  The weather was perfect for a day outside and we had several friends there to cheer us on!

Before we left.  These girls were ready to run!

About to get started.

We all ran in memory of Jamey.

After the race.  They had sooo much fun!

This was Brenna's first 5K and she did it in 33 minutes and 27 seconds.  I think I may have a runner on my hands!

After the 5K, we all participated in the Family Fun Mile.  Brenna came in 2nd!  So proud!

I have had a few friends asking about donating to the Center for Good Grief.  If you are interested, please contract me at tippafeltman@gmail.com.  This organization has blessed us and many others in so many ways and is solely funded by donations.

Save a Place for Me

I heard a song yesterday while driving home.  It is a song I have heard many times, but my heart really listened this time.  It is called "Save a Place for Me" by Matthew West.  The lyrics really spoke to me.  It is a good description of how I feel as reality continues to sinks in and we find our new normal.  

Specifically, this verse:
I have asked the questions why
But I guess the answer's for another time
So instead I'll pray with every tear
And be thankful for the time I had You here

I am in a great bible study on Wednesday nights.  I am blessed to share this time with some amazing ladies.  As part of this study, we have to share our testimony.  I started thinking about mine and I am starting to write it out.  I see God's hands in so many things that have happened on my short 38 (almost 39 years).  However, I continue to find myself asking 'why'.  Why did I find happiness for it to all be taken from me so soon?  Why did Brenna lose both parents at such an early age?  Why was I the chosen one to raise her?  (Don't get me wrong, I am the blessed one here!  I love that child.)  Only God knows why.  

Like the verse says, "I guess the answer's are for another time".

I wonder if I will ever stop asking 'why'?  I am forever thankful for my time with Jamey and forever believe God's hands brought us together for me to raise Brenna.  No doubt in my mind.  

But, if I stop and really listen to what God is saying to me, I hear a whisper "Trust me".  

Trust HIM!

I do trust, Lord, I do.

2 Corinthians 12:9:  "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect is weakness."

Here are the full lyrics:

Don't be mad if I cry
It just hurts so bad sometimes
'Cause everyday it's sinking in
And I have to say goodbye all over again

You know I bet it feels good
To have the weight of this world
Off Your shoulders now
I'm dreaming of the day
When I'm finally there with You

Save a place for me, save a place for me
I'll be there soon, I'll be there soon
Save a place for me, save some grace for me
I'll be there soon, I'll be there soon

I have asked the questions why
But I guess the answer's for another time
So instead I'll pray with every tear
And be thankful for the time I had You here

So You just save a place for me, save a place for me
I'll be there soon, I'll be there soon
Save a place for me, save some grace for me
I'll be there soon, I'll be there

I wanna live my life just like You did
And make the most of my time just like You did
And I wanna make my home up in the sky
Just like You did, oh, but until I get there
Until I get there

Just save a place for me, save a place for me
'Cause I will be there soon

Save a place for me, save a place for me
I'll be there soon, I'll be there soon

Don't be mad if I cry
It just hurts so bad