Real Talk

A few things on my mind lately....

Nine months ago today.  Wow.

I thought getting through the holidays was tough, but the next few months will be just as hard.  Valentine's Day, Jamey's birthday, our anniversary, and then the anniversary of his death.  My counselor told me recently that I will feel like I have taken about 10 steps backward in my grief journey.  She says this is natural and expected.  Ugh!  I feel like I have been able to move forward and dreading the steps back.  It is part of the journey and something I have to deal with in the moment and not push aside, so that is exactly what I am going do.  Prayers please!!

The Super Bowl was Sunday night!  Did you watch??  Poor, poor Broncos!  Bruno Mars and the Red Hot Chili Peppers did the halftime show and it was pretty good!  Bruno sang "our song", Just the Way You Are. Sometimes it just hits you right in the gut.

Brenna is doing pretty well.  Her first mom's birthday was January 27th.  We make it a priority to celebrate Michelle's life, as we will/do Jamey's life.  Brenna got to choose where we had dinner and we enjoyed ice cream to celebrate.  Brenna was 8 when Michelle died, so I want her to always talk about her so we can keep the memories alive.  She will talk, but it is like pulling teeth sometimes.  I will continue to ask questions and talk about Michelle just as we always have.

We went to the basketball homecoming at Brenna's school a couple of weeks ago. I could not help but think if Brenna were ever on Homecoming Court, her daddy would not be there to escort her.  Ouch. That stung. I thought to myself, I'm so happy she is older now and all the "Father/Daughter" dances are for younger kids. I'm not sure I could handle much more.

I've said this before, we are so blessed to have an amazing school and AMAZING moms. These ladies have been there for us, helped me in ways I could never repay, and a support network like no other.  There are too many names to list, but these 6th grade moms rock. I love you, sweet ladies, and so very thankful and grateful for each of you. 

This weather!!!  Ugh!!!  You know, if it's going to be this cold we should at least have something pretty to look at and play in!!!  Bring on the snow!!!!

Basketball season is almost over!  I'm about as sad as Brenna!  We have a team party this weekend and the parents are playing a little game against the girls!!  This should be really interesting!  It's been quite a few years since I've played basketball!  May want to keep us in your prayers!!!

And, I'll start posting pictures soon!  Posts are pretty boring without pics!!

Stay warm out there!!!